I ended up running home around lunch to feed her and have a quick cuddle. Much more enjoyable than pumping.
It's so difficult as a woman- truly we are damned if we do, damned if we don't when it comes to motherhood and working. And honestly, most of us don't really have a choice. Bills need to be paid. College funds need to be started. But it is so incredibly difficult to leave your little one.
Some friends of mine were anxious to get back to work- they need that interaction. I'm not sure if I do or not, but I hate the disconnect I feel from my baby- I don't know if she smiled or fussed after waking up from her second nap. My situation with working from home a couple days a week, and having a sitter the other three is pretty much ideal. It doesn't make it any easier though. . . now I am paranoid that Dell Harper will like her sitter more than me. Sigh.
However, I think every mama needs to do what is right for them. Working or staying at home- whatever is best for the individual, because a mother who is happy with her own situation is best for her children (see Betty Draper for the antithesis of this).